Friday, January 30, 2015

Grandpa Panky Goes to Heaven


You witnessed a beautiful right of passage today. You were present as we said goodbye to your Grandpa Panky.

An emotional day where he went to heaven at 7:29pm.

So many memories so many experiences.

We now have one more angel watching over us in heaven.

Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Home to Hospice Care


The waiting game continues with your Grandpa. He was released to hospice care at home today at 2:30pm.

Your dad had a crazy day at work as he had to go through layoffs at work but luckily made the cut.

Trying times all around. I jetted home to help out. Grandpa is in bad shape as he is in the stage of "actively dying." So he is always groggy and sleepy. I brought you into his bedroom and asked him who was there to visit. He took one look at you and yelled VICTORIAAAAA at the top of his lungs.

Very special moment.

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Preparing To Say Goodbye


Today was quite the emotional day for your mom. She called Father Jom to come to the hospital to do Grandpa's last sacrament of anointing of the sick.

I was in Chicago today and when I landed back home at 5pm I drove straight to the hospital. It's official, Grandpa was admitted to hospice and his body is slowly shutting down.

It has been a day full of emotions and you have been there with grandpa cheering him on. Losing a loved one is just so painful. We have comfort in knowing he too is at peace. One day when you are old enough I look forward to sharing with you how much joy you brought to your Grandpa's life in his final days.

Monday, January 12, 2015

Tough Days Ahead

Dear V,

At 7 months you are too young to understand many things yet. Right now you are helping us through a very tough time in your Mom's family.

Your Grandpa has been hospitalized for over a week. Mom had a very tough and emotional talk with your Grandma today. One of those life changing convos you will hopefully not have to experience in a long long time.

We are living in a daze yet trying to cope and manage one day at a time. Your Grandma fell yesterday while visiting your Grandpa at the hospital and broke her right fit landing in the hospital herself too.

It's been tough. One day I will walk you through this experience. I have do much to tell you. For now, keep giving us your sunshine and your Grandpa the motivation he needs to continue fighting for life!

Ps. Dad finally sucked it up after 30 years putting it off and got braces. Yuck! So forgive me for messing up your pictures even more moving forward :)

Sunday, January 4, 2015

30 Weeks: Tough Day & Teeth Are Coming!


The day started with bathing you and getting ready to take you to Disnyland. All went well until we realized you slept through most of the day and drooled more than usual.

Turns out we felt the ridges of your two lower teeth coming out. Oh girl!

Then we got the call that your Grandpa was not being responsive so they called 911 and to the ER he went. We cut your Disneyland trip short to head out to the hospital.

This whole cancer roller coaster with your Grandpa has been the bitter parallel of your sweet journey.

Lets keep praying that he beats this thing.

30 Weeks today lady!

Friday, January 2, 2015

1/1/15: Another First! Squinting Eyes On Request

Happy New Year Victoria!

Today you woke me up by pulling on my eyes, nose, and mouth. Which was your cue for us to watch the 126th edition of the Rose Parade.

We want to take you, but it was simply too cold. It had not been that cold since 1952!

The best thing today was that you now react to things we do. "Ojitos" is the game we play where we squint our eyes and ask you for Ojitos and you do the same. Simply adorable.

Later in day we took you to your grandparents where it had snowed the night before. Snow in Wildomar! That's a total first!

Thursday, December 25, 2014

V's First Christmas!

Dear V,

These last couple days have been exhausting for you. You even broke a record by waking at almost 10am today! You've never done that!

You have also never pee'd on your dad and that was the morning merry Xmas present you had in store for me! You were so tired from Christmas Eve you forgot to potty overnight!

Spent a special Christmas Eve at Abuelita's house in LA to homemade tamales, ham and ponches...yummy!

Today you spent Christmas Day with your Abuelito's in San Diego.

Lets keep praying for Abuelito so his health can get back to normal. These are trying days as we help him fight this terrible battle.

Love you mija!