Monday, May 25, 2015

First time on the beach!

V,

While you were born in Newport Beach, we had not actually brought you on the beach until today. Newport Beach right by pier 24 was where we spent today's Memorial Day. You loved it. You immediately went into your tent and started playing with the sand as dad brought pales of water to make you sandcastles.

Memorable day as you retreated to mom's arms for your traditional 4:30pm nap.

Sunday, May 24, 2015

50 Weeks Old!

Wow.

Didn't realize how quickly time is passing when I saw my last entry was four months ago. Having Victoria in our life has put our days on fast forward. We are taking each day in and learning so much about ourselves in our journey raising a little girl.

She is an absolute joy and quite mind blowing  to see how much she is taking after us and learning too.

I've committed to jotting down our experience raising her but life has been quite hectic and the little time left leaves us to only catch our breath with this rambuctious bundle of energy.

Today I was able to film her and catch her feeding her dinner to our dogs. An awesome thing to see. I like to think she is learning to share and care.

In only two more weeks our little Victoria will be a year old. Unbelievable. Where has this year gone?

Life sure has not been the same since then, and that's how we dreamed it!

Friday, January 30, 2015

Grandpa Panky Goes to Heaven

V,

You witnessed a beautiful right of passage today. You were present as we said goodbye to your Grandpa Panky.

An emotional day where he went to heaven at 7:29pm.

So many memories so many experiences.

We now have one more angel watching over us in heaven.

Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Home to Hospice Care

V,

The waiting game continues with your Grandpa. He was released to hospice care at home today at 2:30pm.

Your dad had a crazy day at work as he had to go through layoffs at work but luckily made the cut.

Trying times all around. I jetted home to help out. Grandpa is in bad shape as he is in the stage of "actively dying." So he is always groggy and sleepy. I brought you into his bedroom and asked him who was there to visit. He took one look at you and yelled VICTORIAAAAA at the top of his lungs.

Very special moment.

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Preparing To Say Goodbye

V,

Today was quite the emotional day for your mom. She called Father Jom to come to the hospital to do Grandpa's last sacrament of anointing of the sick.

I was in Chicago today and when I landed back home at 5pm I drove straight to the hospital. It's official, Grandpa was admitted to hospice and his body is slowly shutting down.

It has been a day full of emotions and you have been there with grandpa cheering him on. Losing a loved one is just so painful. We have comfort in knowing he too is at peace. One day when you are old enough I look forward to sharing with you how much joy you brought to your Grandpa's life in his final days.

Monday, January 12, 2015

Tough Days Ahead

Dear V,

At 7 months you are too young to understand many things yet. Right now you are helping us through a very tough time in your Mom's family.

Your Grandpa has been hospitalized for over a week. Mom had a very tough and emotional talk with your Grandma today. One of those life changing convos you will hopefully not have to experience in a long long time.

We are living in a daze yet trying to cope and manage one day at a time. Your Grandma fell yesterday while visiting your Grandpa at the hospital and broke her right fit landing in the hospital herself too.

It's been tough. One day I will walk you through this experience. I have do much to tell you. For now, keep giving us your sunshine and your Grandpa the motivation he needs to continue fighting for life!

Ps. Dad finally sucked it up after 30 years putting it off and got braces. Yuck! So forgive me for messing up your pictures even more moving forward :)

Sunday, January 4, 2015

30 Weeks: Tough Day & Teeth Are Coming!

V,

The day started with bathing you and getting ready to take you to Disnyland. All went well until we realized you slept through most of the day and drooled more than usual.

Turns out we felt the ridges of your two lower teeth coming out. Oh girl!

Then we got the call that your Grandpa was not being responsive so they called 911 and to the ER he went. We cut your Disneyland trip short to head out to the hospital.

This whole cancer roller coaster with your Grandpa has been the bitter parallel of your sweet journey.

Lets keep praying that he beats this thing.

30 Weeks today lady!